Last night I had a dream about the kids. It was that Ryah called me stating a fact I told her in real life. She said “you said you’d be coming to visit us soon. Isn’t it soon now???” and she was so right. She’s wise and doesn’t even know it yet. Soon is now, it should always be now. You should never put something on the back burner and wait. If you want something, go out and get it!!! The world won’t wait for you. God already planned your entire life out, so if He puts something on your heart and gives you the drive to go out and get it, you better listen up and give it your all. After all, He gave His all just so you could have breath & life, the least you could do is live your life according to His will and glorify him in everything you do.
With that being said, I’m doing just that. I might have a new place to call home in a short time. It’s scary, but if its God’s will, let His will be done. Just seeing where He takes me day by day. It’s a new year. Can’t hold back, gotta live everyday to the best I can. Take nothing for granted, and always keep your head up. God has your back & he won’t let you down.
oh but with that said, I’m buying my train ticket to see them in feb:)
Tattoo on the inside of my ring finger “love waits”
Means more than you know.
Going to miss Lo and her brother and sister Sooo much. Been crying a lot today cause its so hard!!
Sometimes, people just don’t get it. We all have our way of thinking. It’s what makes us different. Trying to change what someone strongly believes on a certain subject isn’t right, though. It’s nice to have opinions and beliefs of things, but to try and change that persons mind, to be the same as yours, doesn’t seem right to me.
Just a penny for thought.
It’s been on my mind the past few days…
Challenges, changes, and great days ahead.
Nothing will stop me.
I will accept any test given to my life and pass it with flying colors. Nothing will bring me down.
Thank God I have the Lord’s strength.
There’s a million thoughts running through my head right now. As I post this, I’m sitting outside my work in 46 degree weather, just to be alone from everyone. I’m trying my best to remember that I can never be alone, because I have Jesus with me wherever I go. Even when I want to be alone from my friends, family, and even my boyfriend, I will never fully be alone. But to be alone from those people is what I need right now. There is a lot that I want right now but it may not be what I need. Unfortunately schedules get in the way of relationships, emotions get the best of me sometimes, and things go left unsaid. When I realize this I have to just get away from it all and be with just God. To sit and reflect and work out the issues.
This post probably seems pointless to you, but right now it’s everything to me. Sometimes, just getting it out there for anyone to read is all I need for me to handle situations.
Time for Christmas!!!!!!!!!!!
My one and only on Thanksgiving
For awhile now, I’ve been struggling a lot. A lot with self confidence. I have an amazing boyfriend God has blessed me with. He would literally do anything for me and he loves me unconditionally. And sometimes I take that for granted. You see in the past few months I have lost touch with a couple friends who were at one time my best friends. But things happen and we aren’t friends. It wasnt my fault nor there’s, just sometimes you grow apart. And for awhile I didn’t know that. I thought I had done something. So that drove a fear with my boyfriend. I started to fear that maybe I will do something and it could cause us to grow apart. And recently, as in today, one hour ago, I finally talked to him about this. He reassured me that he will never let me go and he will support me through anything. It was my fault for not talking to him immediately when all of these thoughts consumed my mind. But finally I let it out. He is so much of me. He literally is half of me. I don’t know what I would do without him. I’m sitting here in my break room at work on my meal break and in tears thinking of how blessed I am by him in my life and how he has changed me so much in a great, positive way. I love him so much for everything he has done and the way he takes care of me and loves me for me. Tears streaming down my face with makeup running off, he loves me the same.
Joely, I love you so much, even if sometimes its hard for me to express it, you are patient with me and right now, I will stop taking for granted the little things in our relationship. I never want to love another. Your it for me and I look forward to sharing our whole lives together.
I love you, Joel; forever.