One day when I have two days off in a row, I’ll have the privilege of hanging out with my bf….but until then I’ll just imagine how great it could be.

#whining #bummed

there is a fever in my soul for You, only Your presence will heal. only Your love will bridge the gap of apathy I have created. only Your truth is the cure.

Nothing more real than that.

Sometimes what we think we want, isn’t really what we want when we have it and see how different it is from inside your head.
Always thought I wanted it to be like this, but now that it’s happening, it’s hard, I don’t like it, and it’s not what I want.
It’s like your mind can make something to be so great and glamorous and fun, but when it comes down to it in reality, you see how things really are. Feelings get involved, mindset changes. Almost a reality check. Its time to take one day at a time and stop day dreaming, cause it’s doing me no good.

Last night I had a dream about the kids. It was that Ryah called me stating a fact I told her in real life. She said “you said you’d be coming to visit us soon. Isn’t it soon now???” and she was so right. She’s wise and doesn’t even know it yet. Soon is now, it should always be now. You should never put something on the back burner and wait. If you want something, go out and get it!!! The world won’t wait for you. God already planned your entire life out, so if He puts something on your heart and gives you the drive to go out and get it, you better listen up and give it your all. After all, He gave His all just so you could have breath & life, the least you could do is live your life according to His will and glorify him in everything you do.
With that being said, I’m doing just that. I might have a new place to call home in a short time. It’s scary, but if its God’s will, let His will be done. Just seeing where He takes me day by day. It’s a new year. Can’t hold back, gotta live everyday to the best I can. Take nothing for granted, and always keep your head up. God has your back & he won’t let you down.
oh but with that said, I’m buying my train ticket to see them in feb:)

Sometimes, people just don’t get it. We all have our way of thinking. It’s what makes us different. Trying to change what someone strongly believes on a certain subject isn’t right, though. It’s nice to have opinions and beliefs of things, but to try and change that persons mind, to be the same as yours, doesn’t seem right to me.
Just a penny for thought.
It’s been on my mind the past few days…

Challenges, changes, and great days ahead.

Nothing will stop me.

I will accept any test given to my life and pass it with flying colors. Nothing will bring me down.
Thank God I have the Lord’s strength.

There’s a million thoughts running through my head right now. As I post this, I’m sitting outside my work in 46 degree weather, just to be alone from everyone. I’m trying my best to remember that I can never be alone, because I have Jesus with me wherever I go. Even when I want to be alone from my friends, family, and even my boyfriend, I will never fully be alone. But to be alone from those people is what I need right now. There is a lot that I want right now but it may not be what I need. Unfortunately schedules get in the way of relationships, emotions get the best of me sometimes, and things go left unsaid. When I realize this I have to just get away from it all and be with just God. To sit and reflect and work out the issues.

This post probably seems pointless to you, but right now it’s everything to me. Sometimes, just getting it out there for anyone to read is all I need for me to handle situations.

-Rachel